Who am i?

So like every person on this earth I am someone who is searching what my purpose in life is. Some people already know this when they were younger, but I am not like that. I had a lot of passions, some i still persue. But lets talk about who I am and what i have seen and experienced in my eighteen years of lifetime. My name is Chaimae Atif.

My family

On the first picture you can see my little sister Yasmina, she is now 10 years old. She learned me how to treat litle children. I took care of her, I played with her, and after she came in my life, it was perfect. I was never alone because she was always next to me.  Even now when I am having a hard time.

On the second picture you can see me and my brother, he is now 23 years old. My brother and I were not best friend when we were younger. He was a lot outside and was doing things we would not accept. He was very quit and I never saw him. When he came home, he was angry with me and would hit me a lot. But as he got older, he became mature. Now we are always togheter and I am glad I have him in my life.

One of my first passions

When I was little, I began to understand what is important to me. Around seven years, I was always going with my niece to the ridingschool. I enjoyed it. The smell of fresh dirt, the filth, it was a different kind of experience. After that, I went by myself for four years. Most of all I have learned how to help others. This hobby learns you how to take care of horses and people, but also a lot of discipline.

After multiple accidents, I eventually quit. The horses were all traumatised because of their previous lifes. Which made them very agressive or scared. I felt once and the horse landed on my leg, which made me scared. And after 3 years, it was the end of my hobby.

Who do I want to be?

When I was younger I always wanted to be docter. Helping people that is my passion only this way. Untill I saw something which made me think twice about it.

It was a beautiful summerday and i saw how the water was hitting the stones under my feet. It was peacefull but deep in my soul i could feel something would happen. We went back home and I saw a crowd of people around something on the ground. I wen closer and I saw a little boy being resuscitated. The first thing I noticed, they are doing it all wrong. But I feezed. After having so much diploma's it meant nothing if you aren't performed them. So I called my aunt, who was a doctor in the Netherlands. She went to him, and he cought blood. She noticed when she looked in his eyes, he was gone. It was the first time I saw somebody who was dead. And it was the first time the passion I had for years was nothing for me.

What now?

Even so being a doctor is nothing for me, but I can still help people. I came to the conclusion I want to help children who are having a rough time. I went a lot to the psychologist and I am also a person who loves to give advice.  So I want to be child and adolescent psychologist, because it is in my nature. I am working hard to make my dreams succeed, which I am doing all my life. I still have a lot of passions. I love drawing, creating and producing music. I have so much passions I do not even know what I should do, but I am enjoying from it. Even so I thought nothing bad would happen to me again, when I was finally accepting the things I saw in the past. It went worse.